S. Yue Michaelis

Yesterday, the first time I've read the news, I was like "wait, what? are you kidding me? Junno wouldn't do that". Turned out, it was true. I was devastated. Why is this kind of thing keep happening to KAT-TUN? Was all Johnny's fault for forming a group were all the members -almost all the members- hated each other? Today, when I woke up, I was hoping it was all a bad dream. Just my luck, it wasn't. And not only I am still sad, but I am also mad as hell.

Yes, I am mad at Junno. I don't think I will ever hate him -he is just too kind, down to earth, and cute to be hated- but at this point, I am very disappointed at him. To do that just 2 years after the Koki Incident happened! Makes me wonder a lot of things. 1) if he truly loves his fans (NO, HE DOESN'T!). His decision to make this move is very selfish. Not only we fans had to go through TWO members leaving, in shady circumstances, but we have to see the members left apologizing every time they go to a TV show (since Kame and Maru are the members that are more on TV, they are the one that have to endure it... not only when Koki left, but also now that Junno is leaving). If they, for some miraculous reason, are not disbanding, we will have to hear and see -AGAIN- the members left trying to assure fans that they are OK, better than ever, still together, going strong, etc. Happened when Jin left, happened when Koki left. How on Earth are we fans going to believe that? As much as KAT-TUN want to please their fans, they can't. Not at this point. And again they will have to go through jokes and teasing (the kind that Nakai makes, Voice of Heaven makes)? And again they will have to answer painful question in TV shows (like Kame did in Arashi ni Shiyagare, or whenever they talk in SCP)? Did Junno think about this beforehand? Maybe, but he did it anyway.

2) When KAT-TUN was a guest in Utaban the day after their debut, they were asked if they saw themselves in that group in 10 years. Only 4 of them answered yes. When Koki was fired, I thought that him and Jin were the ones that did not see themselves in KAT-TUN in 10 years. Now I see that maybe I was wrong. No doubt one of them was Jin, but makes me wonder now if the 2nd one was Junno? Because his reason for leaving KAT-TUN was that he was turning 30, blah blah, blah. So he did not see himself as an Idol at 30, was that his thinking 10 years ago as well? And I have always felt that the members that loved KAT-TUN the most were Maru, Kame and Koki. True, Koki was not very professional when he did what he did, but he loved KAT-TUN. Did Junno? I don't think so. You can see how much an Idol loves his group in all he gives up, in all painful things he goes thru and no matter what, still keeps going. I have several examples, but I won't point them out since I will need to mention other Johnny groups, and I don't want to compare. Specially because the other groups are always going strong, without a problem fans know of (doesn't matter if they have issues behind doors), and I always envy these groups, while we fans of KAT-TUN have to suffer so much.

I will support KAT-TUN no matter what, whatever they decide. Only that at this point, and maybe because things are still fresh, I prefer they disband instead of still suffering. No, I am kidding, I don't want them to. I will cry -again- if it happens.

Maybe not. The three of them deserve better, but what will happen to Ueda? I can see him quitting in a couple of years anyway (sorry Ueda, but looks like you love boxing more thatn you do KAT-TUN!) And then what? would it be "Kame and Maru"? Argh, I just can't anymore :(

Since I am without internet conection at home, I thought I was not going to make it to post a HB to my dear Kame-chan. But I am still on time...

My worst nightmare... I feel like crying all the time.

My hard-drive is not working. My computer does not recognize it. I purchased this 1T hard drive specially for my Japanese files. I have around 400GB of videos. Years of seaching, downloading... All my doramas... my movies... variety shows of all my favorite JE bands... my concerts... WAAAAA

This cannot be happening... I am really, really depressed

It is already September 4th in Japan, so I am able to wish my dear Maru a very happy birthday!

お誕生日おめでとうございます！

I hope that he has a wonderful rest of the year, and many more in the future! I found this lovely pic in a blogspot dedicated exclusively to him:

If there should be a leader in KAT-TUN, it should be Maru. He loves his band, he is the best MC in the group, and everybody loves him! It is like he never has problems with anyone. And he is so proud of his beatbox <3 He is like an ojisan sometimes, but he is also so genuine <3 I love his beautiful, long hands, his fear of heights (among other things). He is 31 now O_O but he looks like 25! He never changed in all these years.

I <3 Maru

Who is she? Well, she is the mangaka of one of my favorite mangas, Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. Where and what I would be without this manga, I shiver to think of. This manga is silly most of the times, but as funny as hell. It has several amazing character, but my favorite one will always be Nakahara Sunako.

She is a very original character, if we talk about shojos, where most of the times the girl is "nice, cute, energetic, optimistic", blah, blah, blah. Sunako is, in contrast to these girls, dark, kind of crazy, weird, introvert. I enjoy reading every single volumen of the manga. Then, I started watching the anime, and I loved it! Sunako's voice suits her perfectly. I love this seiyu, she is Nakahara Sunako. And while I was getting a bit tired of Sunako-chibi all the time in the manga, the anime made me realize that her chibi is the best and certainly, adorable.

Then I found out there was a dorama. I was skeptical to watch it. Why? Because I have never watched a Japanese TV series in my life. The only TV shows I watched were, or Latins, or from USA or British. And when I looked at the poster, I was convinced I would not like it.

Everything was wrong, I thought the first time I looked at this picture. Kyohei is not blond. Takenaga is not black-haired. There was a boy! Who the hell was that little boy? And all the bishies did not look handsome to me. But then I read the comments of people who watched it, and all of them were positives, I decided to watch it.

And I am soooo glad I did. I loved the dorama. I laughed a lot, I even liked the little boy. All actors were amazing. Sometimes it bothered me that Sunako was such a secondary character, but that was my only complain. I fell in love with the 4 boys, who were, after all, bishounen. It took me a couple of episodes to realize that. I was captivated by Kyohei's perfect eyebrows. Then I was captivated by Kyohei's perfect lips. And perfect smile.

Once I finished watching the dorama, I started to read about these boys. I found out 3 of them were from the same agency, Johnny's Entertainment. But because I was over heels for Kyohei, Kamenashi Kazuya, I started to watch several videos in Youtube and came to know the TV show of his band, KAT-TUN.

The rest is history. From KAT-TUN, to News and Kanjani8 (because of Tego and Uchi), and then Arashi and SMAP. I love these boys. So thank you, Tomoko Hayakawa, because if it wasn't for your wonderful manga, I would not have known the existence of the Johnnys.